Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!!! I love you all !!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

It is sorta overcast today and only abouty 69 degrees. There is a little bit of sun, but not much.
I went to church this morning. It was our Christmas program. It was really nice. They did a good job. I got home about 12:30 pm and Garrett was getting ready for work. He worked yesterday too. He went to his Dad's house after.
I am doing the wash, and I still have to ride my bike for 45 minutes. I made taco's last night so I am not cooking today. They can eat whatever they can find.
Briana I loved the snow pictures. The babies are so beautiful. I am soooooo glad that they look just like greatgrandma Marsh. Of course, since me, your mom, and you look a lot alike I guess I have to give credit where credit is due huh? Dang, I hate giving credit though!!!! ha ha!!!
Well people that is all thats on my tiny little mind today. I love you all.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Today is Rick's Birthday. He is 44 years old. He went to spend it with his buddies. I got him a coconut cream pie instead of a cake. He loves pie.
It has been another beautiful day here today. I am sorry people, but you can keep your snow, ice, and cold. I will stay here in sunny California even with the fires. The coldest we get is maybe 32 degrees and that is very rare.
Briana, those cookies look good enough to eat !!!!!!!! I wish I was your friend. I guess I will have to make my own cookies!!!
I don't want to make anyone feel bad, but I have the most beautiful and handsome grandchildren and great grandchildren that have ever been. My children aren't bad either.
And so it goes !!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Not dead yet !

I have been sick, but didn't die. I have just been going through a silent period.
It was a beautiful day here today. 72 degrees, sunny and very clear. It is pretty cold at night though. Barney is sitting here on the chair with me. He is all poofed up and sleeping. He is sooooo
funny. He loves me even when no one else does. ( of course he dosen't know any better )
I went grocery shopping today. I got a ham for Christmas. Garrett said he is making a chocolate
cheesecake to take with him on Christmas. EGADS!!! The last time he made a cheesecake it took me an hour to clean the kitchen. He is soooooo messy when he cooks.
I am all done with Christmas. Thank goodness. I am not a last minute shopper. I don't enjoy the crowds, and trying to find a parking place. I really enjoyed talking to Christina yesterday. She is a sweetheart. I love you Christina!!!!!
I will sign off for now as it is Mr Barney's bedtime. Love to all !!!!!!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

It is still raining here off and on. Can you believe it is supposed to be in the 90's by this weekend? It is only 65 today.

Garrett is pretty sick, but went to work anyway. He was in a pretty bad wreck yesterday. A man rear ended him on the freeway. The man was driving a truck and hit Garrett at 40 miles per hour. Garrett had stopped for traffic. It knocked Garrett into the lady in front of him. He called me and asked what to do .I told him to call the highway patrol and to take down all the information from the man and woman. He used my allstate auto club to have his car towed back home. Rick tore off the back bumper so we could drive it to the body shop. I followed him there and them took him to rent a car. His car was pretty badly damaged in the rear.

Monday, October 12, 2009

I went to Kaiser this morning and got my monthly blood test and also got my flu shot. I offered to get Rick one but he refused. I also tried to get Garrett to go get one, but he also refused. I guess they would rather have the flu. It is overcast and only 60 degrees this morning. It is supposed to rain tomorrow. They are very worried that they will have lots of mud slides because of the fires. Yesterday Rick broke my sprinklers in the back yard taking out the roots to the plum tree we took out. He went out and repaired the sprinklers this morning ,but I still have to buy some grass to repair the damage from taking out the roots. I did my exersizes this morning, but still have to ride my stationary bike. Garrett complained of a sore throat all weekend. I think he is just exhausted from all the hours he works and has no immunity to anything. I hope I don't catch it!!!!!!!!! I love you all, Have a great week!!!!!!!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

We are still having beautiful fall weather here in California. I am loving it!!!!!
Barney Bird is sitting here beside me preening and getting beautiful in case a beautiful female happens to fly by. He thinks one should always be ready. Anything is possible right? It hasn't happened in 17 years, but he is still hoping.
I made lasagna for dinner. It was pretty good. I made garlic bread too.
I have been riding my stationary bike 40 minutes a day. I do it 20 minutes at a time. I hope to get up to an hour a day by next week. I miss walking but am afraid to do it now. I don't want my knee to go out when I am a mile away from home. It has been much much better lately and that is a good thing.
There sure has been a lot of big earthquakes lately. Kinda scary huh?
Hang in there Sis. If I can lose 151 pounds in 16 months, you can get healthy OK? It was the hardest thing I ever did, but so worth it. I will pray for you.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Hi everyone
It is a beautiful fall day here today. It was sunny, but never got more then 70 degrees.
There is a fire burning out of control right now in wrightwood. That is in the mountains not too far from here.
I went to church today. We had a very interesting guest speaker. I really enjoyed it.
Garrett had to work today. It is 6 PM and he isn't home yet.
Barney Bird is sitting on my leg trying to bite the computer. Now he is rubbing his head and face with his foot. I guess it itches.

Friday, October 2, 2009

I'm Back

Hi everyone
I thought I would shock everyone and blog for a change. My knee was so bad for awhile that I just lost interest in things. It is much better now maybe because the next step is surgery and I do not want that!!!!!!!
I cleaned house and then went to the store this morning. When I got home my heart started fibulating so I am just taking it easy the rest of the day. It makes me short of breath, dizzy, and an anxious feeling. I never know when it will start so there is no preventing it. I have had more then usual this month. I usually have 5 or 6, but have had about 9 this month.
it is a beautiful fall day here today. It is somewhat cloudy, but the sun is still shining. It is about 85 degrees.
I hope you all have a great and blessed day!!!!!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

It is already 95 degrees and it is not even the hot time of the day yet. It is supposed to be over 100 today yikes!! I got up early and went to the bank, the grocery store, and to target. My knee is very sore and painful right now so had to let go of some of the plans I had for today. I am going to do my weights, but will do them sitting down. I can't just get all out of shape because my knee refuses to cooperate.
Rick interviewed two days in a row for a management job at Red Robin so cross your fingers and pray okay? He says it looks good. maybe tough love works after all!!!!!
I had my first nectarine off my tree yesterday. It was huge and soooooooooo good. My peaches are delicious. I still have a lot of them on the tree. I have given them away to neighbors and made pies. I guess I will have to cook and freeze some.
cudos to my beautiful college graduate daughter !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Still Alive

I am still alive, just not mobile at the moment. I went on Tuesday and got an injection in my knee, but so far it hasn't worked. They said sometimes it takes up to 3 days. On Monday night before I went for the injection, my knee popped and went completely out. The pain when that happens is excruciating. I am having a lot of trouble walking. I could not even go grocery shopping today. Rick had to drive me for my shot. I did not sleep at all monday night. Last night was a little better, as I took a vicoden before I went to bed.
Rick is cleaning the carpet right now. He either needs money, or is feeling guilty about my knee. I will let you guess which one !!!!!!!!!!!
Briana I am sorry you are not getting your boy, but I am thrilled its a girl. I knew it was all along. It was such a strong feeling I had. I love you to pieces !!!!!!

Saturday, June 13, 2009


It is very overcast today and misting. I have been outside all morning deadheading roses, trimming around sprinklers, weeding, etc. My knee held up until the end, and is now screaming at me. I started the wash, and am going to stop for awhile. Garrett is sleeping still. It is 10:30 and he usually sleeps until at least noon on Saturdays. Rick went to help his friend with a catering job.
I think that I will try to start walking Monday. I haven't been in a couple of weeks thanks to my knee. I really miss it. I will start by just walking around the block, that way if it goes out I will be close to home. Calling people in this house to come and get you is useless because they won't answer the phone!!!!! and so it goes. Maybe I should get my cockateel, Barney a cell phone. That way he could come and fly me home huh?

Monday, June 8, 2009

My knee is still VERY sore, but finally got an appointment for an injection on July 7. That is a long time to limp around, but the nurse said I could call up from time to time to check for a cancellation. With my luck, I don't think so. I just try to ignore it and get on with my life. Yeah right!!!!! We are having our usual June gloom in Calif. It is only in the 60's and cloudy. The sun will come out around 2 or 3.
I vacuumed, mopped my kitchen, and washed all the throw rugs. I also watered my outside plants that the sprinklers don't hit. I have lots of green tomatoes on my vines. The Japanese cucumbers are starting to bloom. My zuchinni is starting to spread. It will be blooming soon.
Take care everyone, I love you much. Briana, I wish you many days of no headaches, I truly know what you are going through, as I was there myself at least 5 or 6 times a month, sometimes more. I wouldn't wish those stupid headaches on my worst enemy. Of course, being the wonderful, adorable, beautiful, fantastic person that I am, I have no enemies. Hee hee hee !!!!!! Now I have to go pray forgiveness for lying!!!!

Monday, June 1, 2009

My knee has decided to kill me with pain. It has been bad for about a week. I haven't been able to go for my walks and that is a bummer. I have been doing all the things they taught me in physical therapy, but so far it is not working. If it don't get better I will have to go see the Orthopedic Doctor. I hate to go because the shots into the knee are killers.
Garrett was home sick for three days. He only came out of his room to eat, drink, or go to the bathroom. Don't feel sorry for him because he spent EVERYminute on his games. I washed all his bedding this morning to get rid of germs. I used lysol wipes on my hands constantly. I hate it when they infect me with their germs.
Today is Jackson's birthday. Happy (One Year Old ) Birthday Jack. Grandma loves you !!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I woke up with my heart fib this morning, but decided to ignore it. I went grocery shopping, and then I watered my outdoor plants. I touched up all the places in my kitchen ( with paint. ) that needed it, then I did the wash. I do not have a clue what is for dinner.
I have to clean Barney the bird, and then get creative about dinner. The older I get the less I like to cook. I love you all !!!!!!!!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Good News

The Doctor called and said the growth on my jawbone wasn't cancer ,wahoo!!!!
It is a beautiful day in California. I spent the whole morning planting some plants and putting out red wood chips. I put them in all my flower beds. The red looks so pretty and it really helps to keep the weeds out. I HATE weeding. I hope you all have a great Memorial Day. I have no plans. I don't know what Garrett has on his agenda. I am just going to relax.
Sorry Briana, I didn't mean to make you feel worse. I truly love you, but I wouldn't do it for you, because I wasn't fond of the whole pregnancy thing. Maybe because they were such big babies and I was in misery the whole time. It was very worth it, but wouldn't want to do it again.
Love to all !!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I went to the Dermatologist today. She burned 2 places off my back, some off my arms, and 1 off my cheek. She also found a place she didn't like on my jawbone close to my ear. She shaved it for a biopsy, and then decided to just go ahead and remove it just in case. The bad part was that it wasn't numb and it hurt sooooooooo bad !!!!!!!!!!!!! I could feel every cut and when she burned it.
I just pretended that it was numb and didn't hurt because I didn't want to make her feel bad.
And so it goes !!!!!!!!

Friday, May 8, 2009

My friend and walking partner is leaving for Italy Sunday. She will be gone for 2 months. I am really going to miss her. Her Mom is 92 and fell and broke her leg. My friend's sister has been caring for her, but she is exhausted, so my friend is going to relieve her for a while.

The fires have already started here and it is not even summer yet. I fear this fire season is going to be very very bad, because it is so dry. We just didn't have much of a rainy season. I feel so sorry for those people that just lost their homes, especially in these economic times.

I hope everyone has a great Mother's Day, especially my daughter and granddaughter. In my house it is usually just another day, but that is alright because I think I am pretty special. !!!!!!!!!

And so it goes.!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Still alive

I haven't written lately because I was feeling down. I am fine now just one of the phases I go through from time to time. I went and got my paint, now I have to get with the program and start touching up the kitchen. I bought 2 big pots and planted some palm plants in them, for the 2 sides of my garage. They look real nice, better then those big hedges used to. I also bought and planted 4 tomato plants, now I need a zuchinni, an english cucumber, and some basil. It is in the 80's here and beautiful. Summer is on the way. It is supposed to be 90 tomorrow. Thank goodness we don't have to deal with humidity very often. Sunday is Mother's Day so please remember your Mothers. It is not an easy job and they deserve a lot of credit. The pay can be terrible.

Thursday, April 16, 2009


I went grocery shopping, then came home and put everything away. I decided that I had better go to the bank. When I got home I decided to do some touch up painting on my kitchen. I finished with the blue paint, then went out to get the white. I could not find it anywhere, and was cussing Rick under my breath wondering where he put the paint. I decided to do a little grouting above my stovetop. There is a small gap between the wall tile and the hoodfan over the stove. I taped it off and then mixed the grout. I grouted, cleaned up, and then took the tape off. Guess what? The grout all came out with the tape. I was so fustrated by this time I just quit. If I had continued, I would have messed it up with the mood I was in. Rick told me we used up all the white paint. I will have to buy a quart for touchups. I hope your day went much smoother then mine. I love you all !!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I got my car back today, finally. I am happy about getting my car back, but not happy about the price. It cost me $1123.00. Can you believe it? Before I went to pick up my car I went to pick up my TV that was in the shop. It was $125.00. To say that I am broke is putting it mildly !!!!!!
It is VERY windy here today, and soooooo cold. The wind just goes right through you. I needed to do yard work, but not in this weather. I got a letter from the adoption agency. They said that I had not provided them enough information. I guess I have hit a dead end on the search for my sister unless I want to pay a huge fee. That is all the information that I have. I would truly like to give her the opportunity to know her background if she wants to know. I am thinking about going to we tv's site and checking out the locator, but really don't want to be on tv.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Well I finally got up the nerve and called the Los Angeles County Adoptions bureau. I left my name and number. They called me back in about 15 minutes. The guy took all my information. He said it would take awhile, because of the backload of cases. He said that I would definately hear back from them in time. He asked if I wanted to contact her. I said only if she wants it. I told him that I didn't want to intrude into her life, that I just wanted her to know her heritage if she was interested before something happens to me. He said they would contact her if they find her and give her the option of contacting me, but they won't give me her information without her consent. I told him that I totally understood. I explained to him that my Mother is dead now.
I have to take my car in to the garage tomorrow. Rick hasn't been able to fix it and I need my car !!!!! I was very lazy and didn't do much today. I did walk with my friend. The earthquake in Italy is not too far from her family. She called early this morning and they are all fine. They did feel the quake though. Her mother is 91 and has a broken leg. My friend is going in May for a couple of months to relieve her sister for a while, because the Mother can't get out of bed with her leg. She is fixing to start physical theraphy. Hopefully she will be able to walk again.
Bri I am sorry that you don't feel well. Just remember it won't last forever. I love you.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Rick borrowed his friend's computer and hooked it up to my car. It said that one of my spark plug coils is bad. They don't use wires anymore. I didn't know that, so you are never too old to learn. He ordered me all new plugs and a new coil. He was going to replace all the coils but the man said to just replace the bad one as they are $30.00 apiece. He went to pick them up and will fix it tonight. Sometimes I get very upset with him, but he does do a lot for me and Garrett with our cars and the yard. He also saved me big bucks by stripping and painting my kitchen cupboards. I guess I should be grateful for the little things. !!!!!!
I did a lot of yard work today. I am now very achy and sore, but it feels good to get it done. I am paying for it though because my heart just went into fibulation. I absolutely hate it when it does that because I get dizzy and it is hard to breathe, because my heartbeat is so rapid and erratic. I guess I will shut up and go take it easy. Tootles

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Why does everything break at once? The television in the living room broke so I took it to the shop. It is going to be $125.00. I went out this morning and got in my car to go grocery shopping and my car is broke. It sounds like it is only firing on a couple of cyclinders. I don't know what is wrong, but it sounds expensive. I have to take it in to the shop, but I am waiting for Rick to see
what he can do first. It only has 39,000 miles on it so it shouldn't be anything major. Ha ha huh?
I had my air conditioning and heating serviced Monday, and had the GE repair out yesterday because my new frig had what looked like rust spots on the freezer drawer. He said it couldn't be rust because stainless steel does not rust. He was able to get it all off with a special cleaner he had. He said something must have gotten on it at the factory or in the warehouse. I have had it with problems and am going to crawl into a hole and hibernate for a while. !!!!!!! Care to join me?

Monday, March 30, 2009

Randy, Olga, and I went to Rose Hills ( cemetary ) on Saturday. We cleaned Joann, Julia, and Floyd's graves and put flower's on them. I miss them a lot. It was a beautiful day and very peaceful up there.
I didn't walk this morning because it was misting and I melt when wet !!!!!
I am waiting on the guy to come out and service my heating and air conditioning unit to get it ready for summer. Naturally he is about 2 hours late, so that I can't get anything done.
So, Miss Bri, when does Grams get to read the book? Soon I hope !!!!!!
I have to do yard work tomorrow and get the ground ready to plant my tomatoes. I need to trim a few things also. I took out the hedges beside the garage, so I want to put pots there with some kind of palms in them. The hedges had gotten too big and woody. They were 25 years old and deserved to be woody.
Sorry people but this is about as exciting as my life gets !!!!!!!

Friday, March 20, 2009

I went for a walk this morning for the first time in a week. It felt soooo good. I only went about a mile, but its a start. The Doctor gave me a shot in my knee with a very long needle. Did it hurt?
Oh yes, !!!!!!!!! It helped some, but knee is still very sore and painful. I guess there is not much they can really do. I made sure that I wore my brace on my walk, and took my cane. I am still able to get my work done, just a little slower.
Mr Barney is very hyper this morning. He is squaking and flying around. I think he needs a female. I can't imagine having two of them though, so he will have to learn to meditate, or something. hee hee !!!! Now he is attacking the ceramic bird in the kitchen window.

Monday, March 16, 2009

same o same o

I am still in a lot of pain, so called and made an appointment with my orthopedic Doctor, tomorrow at 1:15. I hope he does not want an MRI because I hate the noise and I am claustaphobic and have to go in with my eyes closed and keep them closed the whole time so I can't see how closed in I am. What a baby huh? The good thing is in this family I have a lot of company. There are a lot of adult babies in our tree !!!!!!!
It is sunny and beautiful out today. It is supposed to be in the 70's. Since I can't walk much, it won't do me any good, but its better then gloomy.
My avocado, orange, peach, and nectarine trees are blooming. I hope to have a great crop this year.

Friday, March 13, 2009

pain, pain, and more pain

We were about a mile into our walk this morning and my knee went out. It was soooooo painful. I thought I would never get home. I had noticed that it was a little sore this morning, but had no idea that it would go out. It just kinda grabbed and that was that. I came home and put ice on it also my brace. I limped through cleaning the family room and starting the wash, but then it just got to be too much pain for even me. I took a pain pill, but it didn't help at all. I will have to schedule an appointment with my orthopedic Doctor. Life can never be easy huh? It would be nice to experience just a week or two of nothing happening in this family. A little boredom would be a nice thing for us !!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

life is great

I had a mommogram last Monday. Two days later they called me and told me there was an area of concern in my left breast. They made me an appointment for today in Baldwin Park. I had to go a week worrying if I had cancer or not. I decided to keep it to myself and not worry my kids. They have been through enough. I went this morning and had another mammogram, then they sent me to radiology with this huge folder with all my info. They told me to wait while the radiologist studied the images. I must admit I was nervous, because while they were doing the mammogram, they had the previous mammogram up on the board and there definately looked like a spot around my nipple area. The radiologist finally came out and told me everything was fine that I could leave. I did shed a tear or two of relief on the way home. I just have to trust he knows what he is doing and didn't make a mistake. I just put it in God's hands.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

fear no more

Yea !!! Sis doesn't have cancer !! I hate that C word. This family has had enough to last a lifetime.
I refuse to let it beat us or live in fear every day that someone else will get it. Maybe God will have mercy on us and let us be done with it.
another yea !!!! Willie got his FULL scolarship to college. Go Willie, Go Willie !!!!!!
I was supposed to go to the dentist today, but as usual for me I did a dumb thing and forgot to stop my blood thinners for 2 days, and he wouldn't see me. I have to reschedule. He don't want me bleeding all over him. Go figure !!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

recipe for Briana

Harry Connick Jr.'s Jambalaya

1 lb. boneless skinless chicken thighs cut into 1/2-in. chunks 4 tbsp. butter
3 tbsp. minced garlic 1 1/2 c. chopped onion
1 c. chopped celery
2 bay leaves 1 lg. bell pepper chopped
1 tsp. dried thyme
1 tsp. creole seasoning
1/2 tsp.cayenne pepper
1/4 c. tomato paste
1 andouille sausage cut into chunks
2 cans (14.5 oz. each) diced tomatoes
2 cans (14.5 oz. each) chicken broth
2 1/2 c. regular long grained white rice
1 c. diced cooked ham
sliced green onions
In a large dutch oven melt butter on medium high heat. Add onion, celery, and green pepper cook 6 minutes or until softened, stirring. Add chicken, garlic, and seasonings. Cook 2 minutes. Stir in tomato paste, then sausage. Cook 2 minutes longer.Add tomatoes with their juice, broth, rice, and ham. Heat to boiling on high. Reduce heat to low, cover and simmer 20 to 30 minutes or until liquid is absorbed. Discard bay leaves, garnish with green onions. Serves 8.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Miss piggy

I got my fat butt up and went to weight watchers this morning. I have gained 10 pounds worrying about my daughter, and the trip to Hawaii. My knees are screaming for me to lose the weight. I want to try the new program anyway. The pumpkin cheesecake that I made while I was there didn't help much either.
I did the dumbest thing. I went to the airport in Hawaii to come home Tuesday night. I was supposed to leave at 9:pm. The computer would not let me check in so I asked the lady why. It seems that when I was booking my flights, I accidently hit March instead of February for my return flight. The plane for that night was full so I had to book one for Wednesday morning. It cost me 150.00 to change it !!!!!!!!! I had to hurry and call my son-in-law before he got back home to come and pick me up. The poor guy had to have me back to the airport by 5 the next morning. I would feel really bad about doing such a dumb thing, but I have been doing dumb things all my life so it is pretty normal for me. I must say everyone I know thinks it is pretty funny !!!!!!!!!!
I was going to clean my car and the garage today but my heart is fibulating and I am a tad dizzy, so I guess I will cool it for now. It is 80 degrees in California today. That is just for the people who are freezing back east. hee hee hee !!!!!!!!!
I love you all !!!!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear Briana, HAPPY BIRTHDAYto you, and many more !!!!!!!!!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

sometimes your best is not good enough !!

I sometimes have this incredible sense of guilt, because I had three people with cancer all at the same time and I feel I shortchanged them. It was an indescribable feeling not being able to give each one the attention they deserved at that time. My husband and mother in law are gone now and I will never know if I did enough for them when they needed it the most. I can only hope that I did. I know my daughter got cheated because she was in Hawaii and I couldn't go be with her because I had to care for her father and grandma. Life is certainly not fair in any sense of the word. I just hope that God knows that I did the best I could at the time, and that my daughter can forgive me for not being there for her as much as I should have been. I guess I will always have a feeling of failure somehow.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


I am still here, but just don't feel like talking. I love you all!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 30, 2009


We are not your typical family. Maybe disfunctional is the proper term. Randy and Rick don't talk they just grunt at each other. Randy calls his sister occasionally and talks smack to her, and Garrett talks smack to just about everyone, but if anyone outside the family were to say those things about any of them there would be hell to pay. Rick and Garrett rarely talk, but if Garrett's car breaks down or he needs something Rick is the first person he calls, because he knows no matter what Rick will be there for him. I guess what I am saying is that there is a strong sense of loyalty and love in our family, but you have to dig for it. When Sis had her cancer, there wasn't a day that went by that her brothers didn't ask me how she was. They truly do love her it is just not shown very often. It used to bother me that they were like that to each other, but not anymore. I have come to understand that they just have a hard time expressing their feelings. That is the fault of my husband and I because we both had very traumatic childhoods and learned very young to keep our feelings to ourselves to not be hurt. I just want them to know that I love them with all my heart and I am truly sorry for any part that I have played in making this a disfunctional family.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I have a heart after all

The Doctor said I am doing good. My cholesterol levels are all good right now so I have to stay on the medication for now. I also have to stay on the blood thinners and the blood pressure medication. I take a very low dose because I don't have high blood pressure. It is to help my atrial fibulation. I usually get the fibulation 4 or 5 times a month, but had a lot more in January because of being sick. When I would cough I would go into fibulation. I just hate the way it makes me feel all gittery and hard to breath, because my heart is beating so rapidly. I don't have to see the Doctor again for a year unless things change.
My friend and I are up to over 4 miles a day walking. We hope to hit 5 miles by next Monday. Thats not bad for a couple of old ladies huh? We bundle up and hit the road at 6am. We are usually done by 7am.
It was 76 degrees today, and is supposed to be 82 tomorrow. I am sorry Briana, but you should come live with Grams.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

my day

It is a beautiful day in California. It is sunny and clear, but a little chilly. It is supposed to be 67 degrees. It was in the 30's when I went for my walk at 6 am.
I went grocery shopping then came home and made potato salad. We always feed the family after a funeral. Mister Black's funeral is at 12:30. I also got rolls and butter. I am not going to the grave services, just to the church service with Randy.
My grandson left his keys in the front door again last night. I was going to lock the door on my way out to walk and there the keys were. I told him some night we are going to get out throats cut if he don't stop leaving the keys in the door. He just don't get it. He thinks it is funny. I fail to see the humor in it. I usually check before I go to bed, but he got home late last night.
Finally my kitchen is done. Just a couple of little fix it things are left. It really looks nice. I was looking some pictures of how it use to look, and can't believe the difference. It is so much lighter without those dark cupboards.
I go to the heart Doctor tomorrow. They will probably tell me that I don't have one !!!!!!!

Monday, January 26, 2009

spring cleaning

It is that time again. I cleaned out and sorted all my 2008 papers. I shredded some, filed some, and got everything ready for taxes. I am now cleaning out drawers, cupboards, and closets. I hate it when things accumulate. I detest clutter. Garrett's room is the kingdom of clutter. I just have to look the other way because it isn't possible to change him. He could care less about being the king of messy !!!!!! I pity any woman dumb enough to marry him.
Barney has been terrible today. He is loud and mean. I think it must be the time of the year that they mate, and he wants a female bird. Fat chance !!!!!!
I got my blood test today. They called and said my blood is too thin and cut back my meds.

Friday, January 23, 2009

life is short

A man at our church died yesterday. He was such a nice man, and so healthy looking. He was constantly on the go volunteering and helping people out. He was in the church cafeteria a couple of weeks ago talking to his wife when all of a sudden he passed out and fell hitting his head very hard on the cement floor. He stopped breathing and one of the teachers worked on him until the ambulance came. The hit on the head caused him to have a stroke. He never fully regained consciousness. One side of his brain kept bleeding and the other side was very swollen. Randy is just beside himself. He just loved that man. They were always kidding around. He and Randy were on the church board of trustees together. I think it reminds Randy too much of his dad's death. We need to live each day as though it were our last day on earth, because we never know when God will call us home.

Monday, January 19, 2009

I hate painting

Rick did some touch up painting on Saturday. He was standing on a stool, and I told him that for such detailed work he needed to be on the ladder, so he could be at eye level with it. of course he didn't listen, because what do I know? he made a mess out of it, so today I got the ladder out and did it myself !!!!! It looks really great if I do say so myself. That old saying about if you want something done right do it yourself is totally correct.
It is cloudy in California this morning, but not cold. It is supposed to rain later in the week. I hope so because we are way behind in our rainfall. They are talking about raising water rates and rationing. That would be a disaster for Garrett, as he takes VERY LONG showers !! Maybe I will start letting him pay the water bill. Being raised on military bases he has no concept about the fact that water costs money !!!!!!! And so it goes !!!!!

Friday, January 16, 2009


I did a very stupid thing last night. I turned out the light and went to bed, then remembered that I had not put in my systane eye drops. I reached over on the night stand, got the drops and put them in one eye. All of a sudden my eye was on fire. I ran to the sink and put lots of water in my eye. I then looked at the bottle and saw that I had put Debrox, an ear wax softner in my eye. This morning my eye was swollen and very red. I went to the Doctor and they put drops in to numb my eye and then some other yellow drops. They used a special blue light to examine my eye. He said I was lucky that I did no permanent damage. I have to put some drops in 4 times a dayfor a couple of days. Needless to say I moved the Debrox off the night stand !!!!!!
Welcome to my world !!!!!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

just a thought

In these times we are living in it is easy to be worried all the time and nervous. Lately whenever I start to go there I just say to myself, ( knock it off, you have a home, food, family, clothes, and health insurance. Be extremely grateful and just shut up. ) We need to just let God handle things, and try to live the best life possible. Everyday I say to myself, ( you are alive and breathing ) What else matters ? I am in another episode of rapid heartbeat today. I am having more then usual, probably because I have been sick. I go to the heart Doctor on the 29th, so I will let her know. I need to go ride my stationary bike as I couldn't walk today. Not because of my heartbeat but, because my knee is very sore from lifting some big flower pots yesterday. I was cutting back and cleaning up all my outside plants. One more day of outside work and everything should be done

Monday, January 12, 2009

Its a beautiful day

I know all you people in the eastern part don't want to hear this, but it is in the 80s here today. It is warm, sunny, and clear. It is supposed to be that way all week. I can live with that !!!
I cleaned both my refrigerators, and cleaned and mopped the kitchen. My heart started to fibulate which makes it a little hard to breathe, so just sat on my rear the rest of the day. It is as good an excuse as any right?

Friday, January 9, 2009

a brighter day

The haze is finally lifting. I went for my walk with my friend this morning, and then I cleaned the house. I think being busy is the key, or buying myself a present was good. I got me a new house plant. It is really pretty, of course Barney liked it a little too much so I had to move it. I guess he thought I bought him some greens for his diet. Maybe he is tired of seeds.
It is a really pretty day here today. It is 72 degrees, clear and sunny. The earthquake last night was a real shaker. First I heard a real loud noise like a big truck out front, and then a big jolt with a lot of shaking. It was somewhere around 6 PM. It was centered in San Bernadino. You always wonder if this is the big one !!!!!! Toodles

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Dark Place

Today I am in my dark place. usually when I get sick, on about the fourth day I go to my dark place. I don't understand why, I just do. My stomach is queasy, I feel anxious, and like I won't find my way back. I will of course, I always do. Maybe I need a hug. Fat chance of that with the guys I live with. I told Garrett that I felt so sick maybe I would just die. He said that wasn't a good idea, because then he would have to find another place to live !!!!!!!
I did some touch up work on the kitchen this morning. I can't seem to get Rick started again. He always has something else more important to do. My cloud is growing bigger so will sign off for now.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


I finally went to the Doctor and got antiobiotics. I will be glad when it starts to work. I coughed ALL night last night. I would guess that I only got about 2 hours sleep.
I got tired of being a sicky, so I went out and trimmed the plum tree today. BIG MISTAKE !!!!!
I am in misery now. My neck, back, arms, and legs are killing me. Those cutters with the rope for high places are really heavy, and my plum tree is really big. It took me over 2 hours to finish and cut up all the pieces for the trash can. I would love to be the type of person that can just let things go, but unfortunately I am type A to the max !!!! If I did let it go, I would not be able to stop thinking about it. And so it goes !!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 2, 2009


Okay who gave me their germs? I have a mean sinus infection that decided to go into my chest today. Now I am getting Bronchitis, that means a trip to the Doctor. I can never shake it on my own without drugs. I probably got it by talking on the phone to my daughter or granddaughter. They love to see me suffer, so I am sure they sent it over the phone lines. They are VERY lucky I don't get to live my life over again!!!!! I thought that if I went for my walk and cleaned the house it would make me feel better. Well guess what, IT MADE ME FEEL WORSE!!! I am going to sign off and go have a pity party, and I am the only one invited.