Friday, January 30, 2009


We are not your typical family. Maybe disfunctional is the proper term. Randy and Rick don't talk they just grunt at each other. Randy calls his sister occasionally and talks smack to her, and Garrett talks smack to just about everyone, but if anyone outside the family were to say those things about any of them there would be hell to pay. Rick and Garrett rarely talk, but if Garrett's car breaks down or he needs something Rick is the first person he calls, because he knows no matter what Rick will be there for him. I guess what I am saying is that there is a strong sense of loyalty and love in our family, but you have to dig for it. When Sis had her cancer, there wasn't a day that went by that her brothers didn't ask me how she was. They truly do love her it is just not shown very often. It used to bother me that they were like that to each other, but not anymore. I have come to understand that they just have a hard time expressing their feelings. That is the fault of my husband and I because we both had very traumatic childhoods and learned very young to keep our feelings to ourselves to not be hurt. I just want them to know that I love them with all my heart and I am truly sorry for any part that I have played in making this a disfunctional family.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

I have a heart after all

The Doctor said I am doing good. My cholesterol levels are all good right now so I have to stay on the medication for now. I also have to stay on the blood thinners and the blood pressure medication. I take a very low dose because I don't have high blood pressure. It is to help my atrial fibulation. I usually get the fibulation 4 or 5 times a month, but had a lot more in January because of being sick. When I would cough I would go into fibulation. I just hate the way it makes me feel all gittery and hard to breath, because my heart is beating so rapidly. I don't have to see the Doctor again for a year unless things change.
My friend and I are up to over 4 miles a day walking. We hope to hit 5 miles by next Monday. Thats not bad for a couple of old ladies huh? We bundle up and hit the road at 6am. We are usually done by 7am.
It was 76 degrees today, and is supposed to be 82 tomorrow. I am sorry Briana, but you should come live with Grams.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

my day

It is a beautiful day in California. It is sunny and clear, but a little chilly. It is supposed to be 67 degrees. It was in the 30's when I went for my walk at 6 am.
I went grocery shopping then came home and made potato salad. We always feed the family after a funeral. Mister Black's funeral is at 12:30. I also got rolls and butter. I am not going to the grave services, just to the church service with Randy.
My grandson left his keys in the front door again last night. I was going to lock the door on my way out to walk and there the keys were. I told him some night we are going to get out throats cut if he don't stop leaving the keys in the door. He just don't get it. He thinks it is funny. I fail to see the humor in it. I usually check before I go to bed, but he got home late last night.
Finally my kitchen is done. Just a couple of little fix it things are left. It really looks nice. I was looking some pictures of how it use to look, and can't believe the difference. It is so much lighter without those dark cupboards.
I go to the heart Doctor tomorrow. They will probably tell me that I don't have one !!!!!!!

Monday, January 26, 2009

spring cleaning

It is that time again. I cleaned out and sorted all my 2008 papers. I shredded some, filed some, and got everything ready for taxes. I am now cleaning out drawers, cupboards, and closets. I hate it when things accumulate. I detest clutter. Garrett's room is the kingdom of clutter. I just have to look the other way because it isn't possible to change him. He could care less about being the king of messy !!!!!! I pity any woman dumb enough to marry him.
Barney has been terrible today. He is loud and mean. I think it must be the time of the year that they mate, and he wants a female bird. Fat chance !!!!!!
I got my blood test today. They called and said my blood is too thin and cut back my meds.

Friday, January 23, 2009

life is short

A man at our church died yesterday. He was such a nice man, and so healthy looking. He was constantly on the go volunteering and helping people out. He was in the church cafeteria a couple of weeks ago talking to his wife when all of a sudden he passed out and fell hitting his head very hard on the cement floor. He stopped breathing and one of the teachers worked on him until the ambulance came. The hit on the head caused him to have a stroke. He never fully regained consciousness. One side of his brain kept bleeding and the other side was very swollen. Randy is just beside himself. He just loved that man. They were always kidding around. He and Randy were on the church board of trustees together. I think it reminds Randy too much of his dad's death. We need to live each day as though it were our last day on earth, because we never know when God will call us home.

Monday, January 19, 2009

I hate painting

Rick did some touch up painting on Saturday. He was standing on a stool, and I told him that for such detailed work he needed to be on the ladder, so he could be at eye level with it. of course he didn't listen, because what do I know? he made a mess out of it, so today I got the ladder out and did it myself !!!!! It looks really great if I do say so myself. That old saying about if you want something done right do it yourself is totally correct.
It is cloudy in California this morning, but not cold. It is supposed to rain later in the week. I hope so because we are way behind in our rainfall. They are talking about raising water rates and rationing. That would be a disaster for Garrett, as he takes VERY LONG showers !! Maybe I will start letting him pay the water bill. Being raised on military bases he has no concept about the fact that water costs money !!!!!!! And so it goes !!!!!

Friday, January 16, 2009


I did a very stupid thing last night. I turned out the light and went to bed, then remembered that I had not put in my systane eye drops. I reached over on the night stand, got the drops and put them in one eye. All of a sudden my eye was on fire. I ran to the sink and put lots of water in my eye. I then looked at the bottle and saw that I had put Debrox, an ear wax softner in my eye. This morning my eye was swollen and very red. I went to the Doctor and they put drops in to numb my eye and then some other yellow drops. They used a special blue light to examine my eye. He said I was lucky that I did no permanent damage. I have to put some drops in 4 times a dayfor a couple of days. Needless to say I moved the Debrox off the night stand !!!!!!
Welcome to my world !!!!!!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

just a thought

In these times we are living in it is easy to be worried all the time and nervous. Lately whenever I start to go there I just say to myself, ( knock it off, you have a home, food, family, clothes, and health insurance. Be extremely grateful and just shut up. ) We need to just let God handle things, and try to live the best life possible. Everyday I say to myself, ( you are alive and breathing ) What else matters ? I am in another episode of rapid heartbeat today. I am having more then usual, probably because I have been sick. I go to the heart Doctor on the 29th, so I will let her know. I need to go ride my stationary bike as I couldn't walk today. Not because of my heartbeat but, because my knee is very sore from lifting some big flower pots yesterday. I was cutting back and cleaning up all my outside plants. One more day of outside work and everything should be done

Monday, January 12, 2009

Its a beautiful day

I know all you people in the eastern part don't want to hear this, but it is in the 80s here today. It is warm, sunny, and clear. It is supposed to be that way all week. I can live with that !!!
I cleaned both my refrigerators, and cleaned and mopped the kitchen. My heart started to fibulate which makes it a little hard to breathe, so just sat on my rear the rest of the day. It is as good an excuse as any right?

Friday, January 9, 2009

a brighter day

The haze is finally lifting. I went for my walk with my friend this morning, and then I cleaned the house. I think being busy is the key, or buying myself a present was good. I got me a new house plant. It is really pretty, of course Barney liked it a little too much so I had to move it. I guess he thought I bought him some greens for his diet. Maybe he is tired of seeds.
It is a really pretty day here today. It is 72 degrees, clear and sunny. The earthquake last night was a real shaker. First I heard a real loud noise like a big truck out front, and then a big jolt with a lot of shaking. It was somewhere around 6 PM. It was centered in San Bernadino. You always wonder if this is the big one !!!!!! Toodles

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Dark Place

Today I am in my dark place. usually when I get sick, on about the fourth day I go to my dark place. I don't understand why, I just do. My stomach is queasy, I feel anxious, and like I won't find my way back. I will of course, I always do. Maybe I need a hug. Fat chance of that with the guys I live with. I told Garrett that I felt so sick maybe I would just die. He said that wasn't a good idea, because then he would have to find another place to live !!!!!!!
I did some touch up work on the kitchen this morning. I can't seem to get Rick started again. He always has something else more important to do. My cloud is growing bigger so will sign off for now.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


I finally went to the Doctor and got antiobiotics. I will be glad when it starts to work. I coughed ALL night last night. I would guess that I only got about 2 hours sleep.
I got tired of being a sicky, so I went out and trimmed the plum tree today. BIG MISTAKE !!!!!
I am in misery now. My neck, back, arms, and legs are killing me. Those cutters with the rope for high places are really heavy, and my plum tree is really big. It took me over 2 hours to finish and cut up all the pieces for the trash can. I would love to be the type of person that can just let things go, but unfortunately I am type A to the max !!!! If I did let it go, I would not be able to stop thinking about it. And so it goes !!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 2, 2009


Okay who gave me their germs? I have a mean sinus infection that decided to go into my chest today. Now I am getting Bronchitis, that means a trip to the Doctor. I can never shake it on my own without drugs. I probably got it by talking on the phone to my daughter or granddaughter. They love to see me suffer, so I am sure they sent it over the phone lines. They are VERY lucky I don't get to live my life over again!!!!! I thought that if I went for my walk and cleaned the house it would make me feel better. Well guess what, IT MADE ME FEEL WORSE!!! I am going to sign off and go have a pity party, and I am the only one invited.