Thursday, February 12, 2009
sometimes your best is not good enough !!
I sometimes have this incredible sense of guilt, because I had three people with cancer all at the same time and I feel I shortchanged them. It was an indescribable feeling not being able to give each one the attention they deserved at that time. My husband and mother in law are gone now and I will never know if I did enough for them when they needed it the most. I can only hope that I did. I know my daughter got cheated because she was in Hawaii and I couldn't go be with her because I had to care for her father and grandma. Life is certainly not fair in any sense of the word. I just hope that God knows that I did the best I could at the time, and that my daughter can forgive me for not being there for her as much as I should have been. I guess I will always have a feeling of failure somehow.